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well – i’ve decided to sell my house. it seems like the only pro-active thing to do. and i’m bitter about it to be sure. angry when i have the energy for it.
i researched options; called my lender every other day; listened to freely given (and sometimes unsolicited) legal and personal advice; grasped at straws; burned bridges; cried rivers and generally every other pathetic – but genuine – attempt at figuring out how to keep my home. you may have seen this all in the blink of a blog – but it’s been going on for more than a year now. it’s almost Halloween – it’s time to give up the ghost.
friends and loved ones are trying to console me – trying to mitigate the sadness, the anger, the grief and loss with words of optimism and hope, “It might be for the best. . .” “Tomorrow can only get better” “You’ve done all you can” “You’ll always have a roof over your head” “You still have what really matters” – yet even though it’s all well-meaning – and probably true – these are merely empty platitudes for myself and the MILLIONS of Americans who have already lost – or are in the process of losing – their homes.
my boyfriend says to me, “let me know how best to support you.” and i (probably a bit too sharply) reply, “does your father still have his guns? you can take me around back and shoot me out of my suffering.” – he didn’t find it very funny.
i know, I Know, I KNOW! i’m usually a perpetually rose-colored person myself. yet lately, with my back hurting from painting, my piss smelling like Tension Tamer tea, and packing up my belongings to make my house look “Unlived-in Urban” – i am feeling righteously adamant that optimism is a place being reserved for the fundamental, the optimystical and the rich. i KNOW for every down there’s an up; that every thorn has its rose; that the darkest comes before the dawn – well it’s Zero Dark-thirty now -so DAMMIT! let me have my bitterness, my sarcasm, and my acridity. let me have my anger! and let me express my moments of justifiable rage with dark humor – it’s all i have left.
what? the New York Times reports that, “Hoping, perhaps, to persuade a dubious public that curbing reckless business practices is indeed a Washington priority, the Obama administration and Congress produced a hat trick of financial reforms last week.”? [http://www.nytimes.com/2009/10/25/weekinreview/25morgenson.html?_r=1] yeah – we’re simply dubious after $700 billion dollars in TARP funds have been spent and only “1.53 million properties were in the foreclosure process. . . during the first six months of 2009” [http://tampabaymortgagecrisis.wusf.usf.edu/?p=188]. wow! things are coming up Disney!
- oh? and Feinberg plans on cutting executive pay? well, i hope they can still afford healthcare. with the average CEO making 31,000 DOLLARS A DAY (David J O’Reilly has been CEO of Chevron makes 94,821.92/day and he’s #44), those executives from the largest TARP Bailouts might not be able to get their daughter, Lucy, her H1N1 vaccine making only $34,301 a day [http://www.forbes.com/lists/2009/12/best-boss-09_CEO-Compensation-Banking_9Rank.htm]. what happens if they then have to take a day off when she’s sick?! there goes the Equestrian lessons Lucy! oh, the horrors!
“Home Sales Show Big Monthly Increase Due to Expiring Tax Credit” [http://www.huffingtonpost.com/2009/10/23/home-sales-rise-94-in-sep_n_331884.html] – Thank Obama! SOME lucky fat-cat investor will now be able to afford to bulk buy my house to make another profit and i’ll be out of debt! brilliant! hope they keep up the garden!
oh, please?! tell me another good joke. i mean, really, it’s not that bad, right?
now to go meditate on the image of the Top 500 Executive Bull Runs. . .
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